Feeling down?

                I don't know why I am feeling down now. I have been quite active? Going to library to study regularly and meeting my friends for dinner. But I just have a strange tired feeling now. I just planned my trip to Japan, bought the tickets and stuff.
               For some strange reason, I feel so tired now. I want to sleep, but I refuse to let my body do that now. Haha. I am a strange being. Anyway, I was listening to the sermon today in church. And, the pastor mentioned about the world defining self-worth as equals to achievement and other's approvals.
              I realised that maybe I am caught up in that spell too. I am extremely concerned about how my friend's look at me, especially my close ones. I don't want to look weird and being the odd one out when I am with them. I have a low self-esteem issue even thou I don't behave that way in front of people. Who wants to reveal that part of themselves to anyone?
              Sighs, I am a real fragile being. Lol. Easily hurt, yet wanting to make friends. Putting love above friendship is what I do sometimes too, without me realising. Somehow, I will do that and my friends try to tolerate it. But, some of my friends just leave. I understand that too. After breaking up with him, I realised the issue with some time and I refused to face it. I didn't have the guts to admit that I lost a friend.
              Damn, I am sad over it. I apologised but things seems weird between us. I don't know if she will treat me like before. Nevertheless, I will still learn from my lesson. In that way, it taught me a lesson; not to be lazy. Prioritise things carefully, or you may lose it. I pray that things will go well. :)