When your alone and reflecting on the incidents that happen to you, it happens. I feel like writing a story, a meaningful one. There are too much things on my mind, writing seems to ease the ache, expressing your thoughts using words is always the best way for me (so does playing solitaire for hours).
Counting on people.
This seems to be true when I am younger, but as I grow older, it seems to get harder. After experiencing more betrayals, it is difficult. But, I still have to learn to do it again.
Relationships.
They are very fragile things. I use to think that, they are strong bonds that will strengthen with time. However, it seems that people distance, people change. Those who are your friends now, may not still be after some time.
Boy-Girl Relationships.
I realise no matter how much you think you know the other party, it is limited to only what he/she allows you to see. When someone closes up on you, there is nothing that you can do. Even thou you TRY to have patience and be understanding, things may not end up like how you wanted it to be. There are of course cases that the other party opens up, I am not dooming it. After experiencing it, you get tired. Just tired.
Suddenly the Nigahiga song comes to mind, "Nice Guys come last". I think it happens to me too. They take advantage and take me for granted. But, I can't be anyone else but me which is sad. I want to be someone else.
On a good note, I realise it early, not wasting more time on wasted relationships. I would rather spend my whole life alone, without friends or a boyfriend/husband, than get hurt repeatedly.
Songs.
They are essentially the most important tool needed to heal when hurt. Listening to a song that expresses your feelings, releases all the pent up emotions. It heals. It makes you cry. It makes you feel better after that.
The sad thing is songs now, have no meaning to it.
