Ahhh.

I am a weird, eccentric girl. I am difficult to understand. I always feel like I don't fit in anywhere...
I laugh at things people won't laugh about, I cry when I don't want to, I feel when I don't want to feel anything...
It feels like it's difficult to express myself sometimes...
The people around me have to be nice to me? So much conflicting thoughts and there is only one of me to think through things.

Sometimes, I feel that the people around me have to tolerate me instead of, wanting to be with me. People who honestly enjoy my presence... I can't find one... Hahaha. Nuh-uh. I am engaging in self-pity, aren't I?

As I grow older, I do stranger things day by day. I slowly get more alienated from the rest of the people? I think differently... I behave differently... I naturally become someone that is strange...

I think the strange part was always in me but it wasn't magnified... Because my friends and family accepted it as the way I am...

Now, I feel like most of them don't like the strange me... I feel like an outcast sometimes... While people are laughing and having fun, you know, the strange girl who keeps quiet and smile at the corner? That's me sometimes. I choose to be that way?

I don't know why I do that too. Just that sometimes, its... like I feel like a stranger...

I hope I can find peace with myself and not fight with myself one day.