As long as he continues smiling, his foolish grin and happy lopsided smile. I will be satisfied. Even if I'm in pain or I'm hurt, as long as you're smiling in the end. I will bear with it, I will pull through someday. hopefully, slowly but gradually. :) Will you be genuinely happy? Do you still need me there? I want to be by your side. I want to be the one to be there for you. But you dont seem to care whether I am there or not. Your nonchalant answers tell me exactly that. What am I supposed to think about that? I guess, It's nothing. I am happy you say you care for me as a friend. Really happy. But will you realize I am not there if I disappear from you? I really wonder sometimes, Lol. :)
If I were to die, I wonder who would really cry for me in this Earth. Really missing my presence that will never be there again. Or perhaps someone, watching my back? Hmm, I think that wont happen. Someone who really loves me? I dont think so. I really wish to have someone like that, but I dont have the X factor for people to love me. I can accept that. Although, yes, it may be saddening but I am sure I'll get over it. :)
Short post, I'm feeling really weird. Lol.
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