The quiz

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh. You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

WAHAHAHAha... N-I-C-E.. one... I think so too...

Have you ever - Brandy

[ Chorus ]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for the words
to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[ Chorus ]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to
look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't
give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the
day when they will care
[ Chorus ]

What do I got to do to get you in my arms baby
What do I got to say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[ Chorus ]

Ha.ha. Nice ehh? The part where I dreamed about IT my whole life is WRONG. I didn't, It's the truth. But, damn. If I were to dream about IT my whole life, Won't it be worse? LOL. I thank GOD, I didn't. Another good song, to dedicate.

Regarding the "Tag, Your It."

Geral, I now can't think of that yet.. I will postpone it till next post.. ^^

Now, I am confused... REally confused... I am in love? I am not? It still matters to me, you know... It matters alot to me... Whenever something is wrong with IT, I am worried... I cried, that time... When IT told me that IT was going through some problems and It was not willing to tell me.. I can see that IT doesn't even care of my feelings.. LOL. ha-ha. Haiz~ I just cried you know, cause no matter what IT do to me.. It's alright. But to IT's friends?? HOW DARE IT?!?! THAT THING, doesn't learn! I have learned, how to cherish, how to love... My friends, they are my precious... HOW COULD IT JUST SAY TO ABANDON THEM?!? I just broke down. IT said that if I were to ask IT about the question on a rather sensitive issue.. IT will, ignore me. I was so shocked, I didn't know what to say. Ha-ha. Man, deep inside I was hurting again. I admit it, okay. The pain haunted me again. Shyt, It sucks okay. I thought not ThaT again, even if I couldn't be a good gf, I good friend is all I can do to help IT right?

BUT NO! I'm WRONG! IT doesn't want anyone's help.. IT even wanted to ignore me for asking a question, "Are you ok?*regarding a sensitive issue*".. IT wanted to break our friendship, I thought our friendship was worth more. I'm wrong again. Once again. When will that pain subside and STOPP, once and for all... I don't think I can take it again. IT doesn't care whether I'm crying, laughing or whatsoever.. As long as, I can help I will. I'm foolish, I'm dumb. I want to cry now. But I don't have any energy. I thought of my friends, I promised to be strong. I thought of IT's friends, I feel sad, what a ungrateful IT. They were beside IT always, and that's what IT do to them? Like what IT did to me? I already forgived and forgot about what IT did to me. But IT's friends?

I feel anguish, my friends were beside me. all along. i love them like anything. and IT? IT didn't, did my talking to him ever go into IT's brain?? DID IT? I think not. I can't help anymore. I am of no use. IT won't listen, I can't stop IT from being the next D.S.. ha-ha. In the end, that's all I get for my love right? A spit in the face, a slap on my cheek. And now, I'm itching for another slap. LOL. Haven't I had enough? F.R.I.E.N.D.S, the 7 alphabets that matters so much for me, but so little for someone else. L.O.V.E, the 4 alphabets that matters even more for me last time, but even little for someone else. Then what can I expect from IT? Nothing. IT doesn't want me to be IT's friend or IT's important person. Ha-ha. That's why I gave up. Can't IT see that? That's why. IT said if IT were me, IT would continue pursuing the guy. But what's the point? TELL ME? I'm the only one trying to clap. What's the BLOODY point? TELL ME! My effort will be thrown back at me. I don't know anymore. That's why. Ha. That's why.

Why am I so foolish? I just need time, more time... Why am I talking of IT, and smiling like an idiot? IT doesn't even want to be related to me. IT said, stop asking, if not I won't want to be friends with you.(indirectly, but yeah. true.) IT doesn't want to be friends with anyone else. H.U.R.T, the same 4 alphabets I felt, every single day, but means so little for someone else. ha-ha. Now, I'm gonna be sick again. Established my "night club" meetings since this monday. From, 12pm to 1am. Damn.

I am listening to my previous songs again. Listen to it, depicts my feelings. Ha-HA.

How could you?

April Fool's Day just ended. That was a memorable day. Ha-ha. At least in the past, for now, it only proves to be a sad memory. I looked back, saw the many good times together with him. I will always keep it in my heart, never to lose it. It will bring tears to my eyes, rolling down as my crushed dreams. I have given up hope, I am not willing to indulge in the feeling 'LOVE' anymore. It doesn't exist, it's an attempt to break your heart, make you feel depressed. Last year, I was happy, like chirping bird in the morning sky. Now, I am not. U ask me why?
I answer, love lasts not forever, for a short while. At least, in my case. It's like that. *laughs sadly* I have loved full heartedly, but it's not cherished. It only shows that you shouldn't trust the guy with your heart. Get it girls? In a relationship, someone sacrifice, someone receive. It takes two hands to clap, I'm frantically trying to clap on one side. The other side refuses to try. Thus, it ended. "Feelings" are weird creatures, they come quickly, and goes quickly. I can say that he was taking it seriously, not in my opinion. =) There goes everything I put in. This shows that if you were to choose a boyfriend, please choose one, who takes you seriously. AND he loves you so much, he can't live without you. He would think of you first and help you. Please don't love the guy so much(like what stupid me did) and devote everything you have to the guy. He would take it for granted and break it! Lol. Not that he is a bad guy, mind me. He is not a good boyfriend, but a good friend. Not the friend who would be beside you all the time, but the kind to cheer you up when you're down. ^^
By: Gtxl


Oh ya, I gave up on him because, he got a new girlfriend(in less than one week, mind you, how heart-breaking it is!). If not, I think, I would continue my one-sided love. ha-ha. Devoted, stupid, ME! ^^v!