Ello people.

I feel really weird right now. I have thousand and one homework left to do. And yet, here I am blogging away. I met with my friends on last Sunday, we watched movies and yeah... Nice movies... But I hoped that we could talk you know. Talk about our lives, too bad sk not there with us.. =( Des sent me this song,"最近" It's a really moving song, you know. Makes me think of well, you know. I have loved and lost, tried my very best. I still wanted to be friends with him. He is different form before, he has lost his memories. At least the memories that he wants to forget, like selective memory loss like what steph has said. It's just unfair, why does he get to forget? And I can't forget? I am so very tired to deal with this problem already, It's like wanting to just give up and tell him to go and do what he wants? I don't really care anymore? You can rot and die for all I care. How much energy, time and mental thinking I have used, just to think about his problems and the problems he have given me. Haiz~
How much more do you want from me, boy? I wanted to just give up on you and your senseless problems but I had to care. The reason being, I am your friend. I promise myself that I will be beside my friends no matter what happens in the future. That's why, I am still beside you right at this moment. If there's a problem, approach me, I can help. How many times I have cried for you? It's extremely tiring especially when the person do not care about you. I think, a simple "Sorry" or a simple "Thank You", would have greatly satisfied me. But nope, I don't hear anything like that, He takes me for granted, that is definitely true. I wonder if one day, when I am gone, would he even realise I am actually gone? This is the thing perhaps that bothers me. In my opinion, I don't think he would notice the difference. Maybe a slight disruption from his daily life, but other then that. I don't think he will stop and think of the things I have done for him. *sighs* Well, I have done my very best right? I always tried to be the best gf and the best friend for him. It doesn't really matter to him, It's just taken for granted I guess. One day, when I look back, I would only remember him as the person who is a guy I loved deeply, a unrequited love. I think this is the first guy in my whole life I have loved the most and full heartedly. Of course, It's my first love. I think, I should have chosen a better first love, don't you think so?
That time, I was talking to steph late at night. I became emo. And cried badly again. It's because of that particular person again. I don't know how to approach him anymore. It's as if he is a stranger once again. Not the des I once knew. I couldn't communicate with him that well as before. I have lost a good friend, that was the feeling. I also felt really tired of everything. School, choir(CCA), homework, after everything. There is an additional stress, Friend. Well, him okay. lol.
Hmm, it's time for my homework, thou it's super late at night now. It's going to reach 12pm alrdy. I am so TIRED! of everything. Good night to those good folks around~!